so i have to be honest, i feel like an idiot when i go to church sometimes. the reason i feel this way is very small, but it's weird. i will explain, so when my family first gets to church, my dad drops me, my sisters and my mom off at the door while he goes to park the car. once we get inside, my mom goes straight to the bathroom, while my sisters go straight to youth group. i do not usually need to pee when we get there, and i'm too old for youth group, so i just stand there in the lobby, looking like a lonely loner. if someone does talk to me, its the usual small talk for like 2 minutes, and then i move on.
i'm in that weird in-between stage where i'm not in youth group anymore, but i'm not "an adult" and then if someone my age does come to church, they're with their boyfriend/girlfriend or husband/wife. all the people who graduated with me are off at college, or if they do come to church, we don't really talk, because we didn't really talk all that much in youth group.
i probably sound like a cry baby, and i'm sorry, but if you are or have been in that position before, you know what i mean.
love, Katie
Saturday, December 1, 2012
Sunday, November 25, 2012
The one about Costco.
I love going to Costco.
Why? You ask.
Well, I will tell you why.
First of all, it's a really good place to people-watch. I like to watch people (not in a creepy way :P) I just mean, there are so many different types of people out there, and each one of them has a story.
Costco is large store, if you haven't been there, just look up "Costco store" into google images, you'll see what I mean. Everything comes in bulk there (despite that fact, my mother goes there at least 2 or 3 times a week) because everything comes in bulk, the aisles are miles high of products they sell. What I like about the size is, when you're outside a Costco store, it just looks like a big, square brick building, but when you go inside, it's this super store, mostly full of things you don't need, but unfortunately that's the society we live in.
In every Costco, there's an aisle end specially for flowers, it's one of my favorite aisles to pass because there are so many flowers! It smells awesome looks absolutely beautiful! So colorful.
The section of the store with all of the electronics is a pretty cool part too, like at Walmart or target, all the tvs play the same thing, except at Costco, they usually have one or two tvs playing a really awesome movie, like how to train your dragon, or Star Wars. Cool, I know!
The apple pie from Costco that they have for thanksgiving season is absolutely devine! I mean really delicious! They also have this chocolate cake that lasts forever because its so rich! Lets just say that Costco knows what they're doing when it comes to desserts.
The people that work at Costco are just so beautiful, I mean, if you walk in there, your jaw drops. So next time you go to Costco, look at the people that work there, you'll see what I mean. And most of them are really nice! There are a few that are kinda mean at times, but they're usually pretty avoidable.
Speaking of people that work at Costco, here is my final reason for loving to go to Costco. There is this guy that I have the BIGGEST crush on that works in the food court place. No joke, I just find him SO incredibly attractive. I always remembered him working at Costco since I remember ever going there, but just a few months ago, when I was getting some ice cream, he was the one taking my order and I just started thinking he was the bee's knees. I don't know why.
So now, every time my mother says shes going to Costco, I want to go to see the flowers and the tvs, but I also like to see if he's there.
Well, now you probably won't look at Costco the same, but that's okay, there's beauty in everything, you just have to look for it.
Love, Katie
Why? You ask.
Well, I will tell you why.
First of all, it's a really good place to people-watch. I like to watch people (not in a creepy way :P) I just mean, there are so many different types of people out there, and each one of them has a story.
Costco is large store, if you haven't been there, just look up "Costco store" into google images, you'll see what I mean. Everything comes in bulk there (despite that fact, my mother goes there at least 2 or 3 times a week) because everything comes in bulk, the aisles are miles high of products they sell. What I like about the size is, when you're outside a Costco store, it just looks like a big, square brick building, but when you go inside, it's this super store, mostly full of things you don't need, but unfortunately that's the society we live in.
In every Costco, there's an aisle end specially for flowers, it's one of my favorite aisles to pass because there are so many flowers! It smells awesome looks absolutely beautiful! So colorful.
The section of the store with all of the electronics is a pretty cool part too, like at Walmart or target, all the tvs play the same thing, except at Costco, they usually have one or two tvs playing a really awesome movie, like how to train your dragon, or Star Wars. Cool, I know!
The apple pie from Costco that they have for thanksgiving season is absolutely devine! I mean really delicious! They also have this chocolate cake that lasts forever because its so rich! Lets just say that Costco knows what they're doing when it comes to desserts.
The people that work at Costco are just so beautiful, I mean, if you walk in there, your jaw drops. So next time you go to Costco, look at the people that work there, you'll see what I mean. And most of them are really nice! There are a few that are kinda mean at times, but they're usually pretty avoidable.
Speaking of people that work at Costco, here is my final reason for loving to go to Costco. There is this guy that I have the BIGGEST crush on that works in the food court place. No joke, I just find him SO incredibly attractive. I always remembered him working at Costco since I remember ever going there, but just a few months ago, when I was getting some ice cream, he was the one taking my order and I just started thinking he was the bee's knees. I don't know why.
So now, every time my mother says shes going to Costco, I want to go to see the flowers and the tvs, but I also like to see if he's there.
Well, now you probably won't look at Costco the same, but that's okay, there's beauty in everything, you just have to look for it.
Love, Katie
Thursday, September 27, 2012
It's 11:11, make a wish!
You know how people say that if you want to watch a soap opera, just go on to Facebook and scroll through your news feed? Well I've always ignored those people who tend to make everything they possibly can dramatic. But over the last couple of days, I start to notice those posts more, especially the posts of my friends who are going off to college or the people who have been in college and they complain about everything! It makes me so scared, and here's why:
So I am taking a year off to get a job and save up some money, which I already feel kind of self conscious about because its not something people my age do, but here I am.
I have a job as a full-time nanny, but I don't actually start until a little under a month. I'm really excited for it! Right now I feel very comfortable, I feel like I am enjoying life so much! So much more than I ever have.
But here's where I get scared, my friends are complaining about school, their job, or relationships. I'm not saying those aren't all perfectly plausible things to have problems with, but they only talk about the bad things, which makes me wonder if that's all they really EVER focus on. So when I start working, am I just gonna get so tired that I only focus on the bad things? I'm scared because I KNOW that when I get tired, I get depressed.
I'm so in love with life right now, I'm scared that when my life speeds up, I'm going to lose that love. But... Even if I did start focusing on bad things, I would not post it on Facebook. I try to keep the things I share positive.
So if you are reading this, and you like to share those things that are so bad about your life, just don't. Because like me, when you are enjoying life, you'll look bad at how dramatic you were and feel embarrassed for yourself. I'm probably going to look back on this very post and laugh because ill think I was so dramatic.
This post, so far is a little bit of a downer, so ill change the mood a little. The reason I am in love with life is because I love God, and I've tried to get to know Him a bit, and when you know a person, you know how they tend to interact with you. I see God EVERYWHERE, He's in a song I hear on the radio because its so beautiful, He's in a picture in my wall because I saw beauty in it, He speaks to me at random times throughout the day to say exactly what I need to hear, He's in a good movie because its so beautifully made. There are so many ways I see Him, and that's how I enjoy life, and that's also why I'm scared to lose it.
•••
mr. darcy: you must know... surely, you must know it was all for you. you are too generous to trifle witH me. i bElieve you spoke with my aunt last night, anD it has taught me tO hopE as id Scarcely allowed myself before. if your feeliNgs are still what They were last april, tell me so at onCe. my affections And wishes have not changed, but one woRd from you will silEnce me forever. if, however, your feelings hAve chaNged, I will have to tell You: you have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love, I love, I love you. I never wish to be parted froM yOu fRom this day on. E
So I am taking a year off to get a job and save up some money, which I already feel kind of self conscious about because its not something people my age do, but here I am.
I have a job as a full-time nanny, but I don't actually start until a little under a month. I'm really excited for it! Right now I feel very comfortable, I feel like I am enjoying life so much! So much more than I ever have.
But here's where I get scared, my friends are complaining about school, their job, or relationships. I'm not saying those aren't all perfectly plausible things to have problems with, but they only talk about the bad things, which makes me wonder if that's all they really EVER focus on. So when I start working, am I just gonna get so tired that I only focus on the bad things? I'm scared because I KNOW that when I get tired, I get depressed.
I'm so in love with life right now, I'm scared that when my life speeds up, I'm going to lose that love. But... Even if I did start focusing on bad things, I would not post it on Facebook. I try to keep the things I share positive.
So if you are reading this, and you like to share those things that are so bad about your life, just don't. Because like me, when you are enjoying life, you'll look bad at how dramatic you were and feel embarrassed for yourself. I'm probably going to look back on this very post and laugh because ill think I was so dramatic.
This post, so far is a little bit of a downer, so ill change the mood a little. The reason I am in love with life is because I love God, and I've tried to get to know Him a bit, and when you know a person, you know how they tend to interact with you. I see God EVERYWHERE, He's in a song I hear on the radio because its so beautiful, He's in a picture in my wall because I saw beauty in it, He speaks to me at random times throughout the day to say exactly what I need to hear, He's in a good movie because its so beautifully made. There are so many ways I see Him, and that's how I enjoy life, and that's also why I'm scared to lose it.
•••
mr. darcy: you must know... surely, you must know it was all for you. you are too generous to trifle witH me. i bElieve you spoke with my aunt last night, anD it has taught me tO hopE as id Scarcely allowed myself before. if your feeliNgs are still what They were last april, tell me so at onCe. my affections And wishes have not changed, but one woRd from you will silEnce me forever. if, however, your feelings hAve chaNged, I will have to tell You: you have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love, I love, I love you. I never wish to be parted froM yOu fRom this day on. E
Monday, September 17, 2012
I make myself laugh
so i said i was going to post more often, and that didn't happen... so i laugh, and laugh, and laugh.
ha ha ha.
its very late, and i Can't seem to fall asleep. sO i laugh.
actually, i can't laugh oUt loud because my sister is asLeep, here in the same room with me. i don't want to wake her up.
sometimes i wish that i coulD fly, and look down at the beautiful state of mInnesota, especially during the state fair. every time i go to the state fair, i look aT all the people and think, they are smiling and having a good time, But somewhere, in themselves or with someone else, or in the near future, they are going through somEthing hard. and my heart breaks for them. i want Them to be happy, so i say a little praying for as many people as I can, even when im not at the state fair. because i love people, just so Much. i think people are just so beautiful, and it makes me sad when people are so sElfish. sometimes i just can't understand how people are so .mean.
?
i know that God loves everyone though, and that He wants everyone to know Him, so that is nice to know. God is everywhere.
LOVE,
Katieee
ha ha ha.
its very late, and i Can't seem to fall asleep. sO i laugh.
actually, i can't laugh oUt loud because my sister is asLeep, here in the same room with me. i don't want to wake her up.
sometimes i wish that i coulD fly, and look down at the beautiful state of mInnesota, especially during the state fair. every time i go to the state fair, i look aT all the people and think, they are smiling and having a good time, But somewhere, in themselves or with someone else, or in the near future, they are going through somEthing hard. and my heart breaks for them. i want Them to be happy, so i say a little praying for as many people as I can, even when im not at the state fair. because i love people, just so Much. i think people are just so beautiful, and it makes me sad when people are so sElfish. sometimes i just can't understand how people are so .mean.
?
i know that God loves everyone though, and that He wants everyone to know Him, so that is nice to know. God is everywhere.
LOVE,
Katieee
Tuesday, May 1, 2012
i've noticed that i don't write on here anymore
and i've always told myself that i would write these long thoughtful posts
but it's not working
so i'm going to try to write more often, but it would probably be more random and short
so here's the random:
i'm listening to "beautiful people" by carolina liar
and i like it
go listen
love, katie♥
and i've always told myself that i would write these long thoughtful posts
but it's not working
so i'm going to try to write more often, but it would probably be more random and short
so here's the random:
i'm listening to "beautiful people" by carolina liar
and i like it
go listen
love, katie♥
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Autoharp
i have been desperately trying to find some autoharp songs because that instument has to be one of the most beautiful instruments EVER!
if you don't know what an autoharp is, there will be one in a video i'll post on this blog a little ways on.
the first time i heard an autoharp was during the movie "A Series of Unfortunate Events"
it used to be my favorite movie, just because it was so different from any other movie i had ever seen when it came out.
if you are familiar with this film, then you may remember the scene where the children's uncle plays an autoharp for them.
when i saw that scene for the first time in the theatre, i loved it!
so many notes and beautiful chords!
here is the scene:
so beautiful right?♥
anyway, when i first saw it, i thought it was awesome, but i didn't really look into it that much.
recently i bought the score for "500 Days of Summer" and it is so awesome!
there is a song in it though that has an autoharp and this song helped me re-discover the autoharp.
here is the song:
when i heard the song i instantly knew it was the same instrument in "Series" but i didn't know what it was called.
i asked my mom and she told me (yay mom!)
since then, i've looked up videos on people playing this instrument and i can't get enough!
so i am seriously considering saving up some money and buying one, because that would be SO AWESOME!
that is my latest obsession, i hope you can enjoy it like i have
love, Katie♥
if you don't know what an autoharp is, there will be one in a video i'll post on this blog a little ways on.
the first time i heard an autoharp was during the movie "A Series of Unfortunate Events"
it used to be my favorite movie, just because it was so different from any other movie i had ever seen when it came out.
if you are familiar with this film, then you may remember the scene where the children's uncle plays an autoharp for them.
when i saw that scene for the first time in the theatre, i loved it!
so many notes and beautiful chords!
here is the scene:
so beautiful right?♥
anyway, when i first saw it, i thought it was awesome, but i didn't really look into it that much.
recently i bought the score for "500 Days of Summer" and it is so awesome!
there is a song in it though that has an autoharp and this song helped me re-discover the autoharp.
here is the song:
when i heard the song i instantly knew it was the same instrument in "Series" but i didn't know what it was called.
i asked my mom and she told me (yay mom!)
since then, i've looked up videos on people playing this instrument and i can't get enough!
so i am seriously considering saving up some money and buying one, because that would be SO AWESOME!
that is my latest obsession, i hope you can enjoy it like i have
love, Katie♥
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Like Crazy
please be aware that this post has spoilers, so if you have not seen this movie and want to watch it without having the end ruined for you, wait until you've seen the movie.
This movie was very interesting.
It wasn't bad, but it wasn't good either.
It was choppy and seemed to be fast paced, but the lack of music and movement made it slow, which is very appropriate if you ask me.
here's the story in case you've never heard of this movie:
This movie was very interesting.
It wasn't bad, but it wasn't good either.
It was choppy and seemed to be fast paced, but the lack of music and movement made it slow, which is very appropriate if you ask me.
here's the story in case you've never heard of this movie:
Anna and Jacob are two college students in LA and they get together.
Anna is from the UK and overstays her Visa, so she gets banned from the US.
They start to drift apart, but several times they come back together again.
The couple gets married in hopes to lift the ban, but no luck.
Eventually the ban does get lifted, but by this time Anna and Jacob have
fallen apart again.
Anna tells Jacob the ban is lifted and he tells her to come back to America
to live with him. Unfortunately, when Anna goes to America, they both realize that
they simply don't like each other anymore and Anna goes home.
so the fact that the movie is slow is appropriate to me because, us as the viewers are supposed to be waiting and waiting to see them get back together, just like the characters in the movie.
my theory as to why it ultimately didn't work out between them is because they didn't actually like each other as much as they thought they did. when they first get together, the mood is about infatuation and being in the moment. they didn't have time to get out of that phase before they were seaparated, so that is all they thought their relationship was.
they were also not committed to each other. every time they got back together, they would ask each other if they had been seeing anyone else and even asking if they'd slept with someone else! (?) they clearly didn't care about the relationship enough to refrain from being unfaithful to one another.
the director did a very good job of easing the audience into believing that they didn't like each other anymore. when they were together again, a little bit of that infatuation from the beginning is chiseled off and in the end, the mood is opposite of the beginning, awkward and wrong.
to me, i never felt that they were actually in love. that what you're supposed to believe right at the beginning, but i also wonder if maybe it was meant to seem like they weren't in real love, or if the chemistry between the actors didn't really click. the feeling could have been to forshadow the future events.
when i first saw the trailer for this movie, i bought that they were in love and that the movie would have more on why they were in love and show how they grew to love each other. when i saw the movie i found that their relationship was all about the physical aspect of it, and they didn't really get to know each other as people. it was interesting to see the different atmospheres between the trailer and the actual movie.
my mother was starting to go Like Crazy because they would keep getting back together despite them losing interst in one another. here's what i think explains why they kept getting back together despite them losing interest in each other: at the very end of the movie before Anna left, it showed them hugging and having flashbacks to their good memories, and i think that those memories are all they hold onto in the relationship. i then think back to when they would be contemplating whether they should get back together and i imagine them playing those good memories in their mind and wanting those feelings again. so at the end when they look over all the time they've spent together, they almost decide that they just can't get those feelings back anymore and she leaves.
ultimately, it's just a sad "love" story, but there is a lot to learn from it. you can learn that not moving on can be really dangerous and harmful not only to you, but to those around you. you can learn that being faithful in a relationship is a lot more important than what society tells us. and lastly, you can learn that a successful relationship is more than what the good feelings make it.
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