in between

so i have to be honest, i feel like an idiot when i go to church sometimes. the reason i feel this way is very small, but it's weird. i will explain, so when my family first gets to church, my dad drops me, my sisters and my mom off at the door while he goes to park the car. once we get inside, my mom goes straight to the bathroom, while my sisters go straight to youth group. i do not usually need to pee when we get there, and i'm too old for youth group, so i just stand there in the lobby, looking like a lonely loner. if someone does talk to me, its the usual small talk for like 2 minutes, and then i move on.

i'm in that weird in-between stage where i'm not in youth group anymore, but i'm not "an adult" and then if someone my age does come to church, they're with their boyfriend/girlfriend or husband/wife. all the people who graduated with me are off at college, or if they do come to church, we don't really talk, because we didn't really talk all that much in youth group.

i probably sound like a cry baby, and i'm sorry, but if you are or have been in that position before, you know what i mean.

love, Katie