It's 11:11, make a wish!

You know how people say that if you want to watch a soap opera, just go on to Facebook and scroll through your news feed? Well I've always ignored those people who tend to make everything they possibly can dramatic. But over the last couple of days, I start to notice those posts more, especially the posts of my friends who are going off to college or the people who have been in college and they complain about everything! It makes me so scared, and here's why:

So I am taking a year off to get a job and save up some money, which I already feel kind of self conscious about because its not something people my age do, but here I am.

I have a job as a full-time nanny, but I don't actually start until a little under a month. I'm really excited for it! Right now I feel very comfortable, I feel like I am enjoying life so much! So much more than I ever have.

But here's where I get scared, my friends are complaining about school, their job, or relationships. I'm not saying those aren't all perfectly plausible things to have problems with, but they only talk about the bad things, which makes me wonder if that's all they really EVER focus on. So when I start working, am I just gonna get so tired that I only focus on the bad things? I'm scared because I KNOW that when I get tired, I get depressed.

I'm so in love with life right now, I'm scared that when my life speeds up, I'm going to lose that love. But... Even if I did start focusing on bad things, I would not post it on Facebook. I try to keep the things I share positive.

So if you are reading this, and you like to share those things that are so bad about your life, just don't. Because like me, when you are enjoying life, you'll look bad at how dramatic you were and feel embarrassed for yourself. I'm probably going to look back on this very post and laugh because ill think I was so dramatic.

This post, so far is a little bit of a downer, so ill change the mood a little. The reason I am in love with life is because I love God, and I've tried to get to know Him a bit, and when you know a person, you know how they tend to interact with you. I see God EVERYWHERE, He's in a song I hear on the radio because its so beautiful, He's in a picture in my wall because I saw beauty in it, He speaks to me at random times throughout the day to say exactly what I need to hear, He's in a good movie because its so beautifully made. There are so many ways I see Him, and that's how I enjoy life, and that's also why I'm scared to lose it.
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mr. darcy: you must know... surely, you must know it was all for you. you are too generous to trifle witH me. i bElieve you spoke with my aunt last night, anD it has taught me tO hopE as id Scarcely allowed myself before. if your feeliNgs are still what They were last april, tell me so at onCe. my affections And wishes have not changed, but one woRd from you will silEnce me forever. if, however, your feelings hAve chaNged, I will have to tell You: you have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love, I love, I love you. I never wish to be parted froM yOu fRom this day on. E

I make myself laugh

so i said i was going to post more often, and that didn't happen... so i laugh, and laugh, and laugh.
ha ha ha.
its very late, and i Can't seem to fall asleep. sO i laugh.
actually, i can't laugh oUt loud because my sister is asLeep, here in the same room with me. i don't want to wake her up.
sometimes i wish that i coulD fly, and look down at the beautiful state of mInnesota, especially during the state fair. every time i go to the state fair, i look aT all the people and think, they are smiling and having a good time, But somewhere, in themselves or with someone else, or in the near future, they are going through somEthing hard. and my heart breaks for them. i want Them to be happy, so i say a little praying for as many people as I can, even when im not at the state fair. because i love people, just so Much. i think people are just so beautiful, and it makes me sad when people are so sElfish. sometimes i just can't understand how people are so .mean.
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i know that God loves everyone though, and that He wants everyone to know Him, so that is nice to know. God is everywhere.

LOVE,
Katieee